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承認

2011-01-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

我是一個易怒、自私、不知節制、宅腐、怕寂寞、煩人惱人、好大喜功、又不懂悔改的人。

孤傲

2010-12-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

你的孤傲，開始一連串的閃躲。
我找了很多理由給自己，以為能給的是寬容。
再明顯不過了，只是這一刻、選擇是否看清而已。

When I pick up the phone at 18:57

2010-11-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

I turned the phone ring louder, wondered if you will call me after work.
I was thrilled and extremely happy while you called.
Do I like you? Or I like the feeling of being thinking of?

I got mad because of myself

2010-11-09T00:20:00.003+08:00

I got mad because of myself.

Not you, not she, but myself.

The thing is that I always expect too much, pretending being sick, and asking for attention without understanding and respect.

Face to the bright side, keep myself under the sunshine.

Do what I should do and let it be.

It will come to me if 'it' belongs to me.

Vice versa, if it walks away, then 'it' is just for others, as destiny.

We said 5 times

2010-03-30T12:37:00.003+08:00

According to Jessy, 5 times is enough for quote collection.
Quote from the joy, the guilt, the behaviour pattern of us, our status of mind and the reality.
I would like to give it a try and quit for good. What if I can't get rid of it? We will see.....

What kind of girl you are

2010-03-23T09:57:00.002+08:00

Miss Y is a sweet hearty, most people like her and want to take care of her.
Miss H is a gentle lady, she always knows how to comfort sad people.
Miss A is a quiet girl, she doesnt really know what she wants and never ask for any favor. She prefers to be alone.
Miss L is a hottie with manly determination. She dances wildly and thinks cynically.
Miss J is a virgo, looks friendly and act rationally. Not much fun but tons of discipline in her life.
Miss R is rabid Scorpio, she believes in her faith and avoid all noise with other people's blood.
Miss W is a manic workaholic and a desperate love exchanger. She has too much to give but not much people feedback to her.
Miss I is a wayward Cancer, she cares and she doesnt care. Noodle, pillow plant and her curly hair bf are all she got.

The thing I want to say is girls are never satisfied with who they are and what they have currently. Other girls' attributes and characteristics seem more attractive since these 'charmy factors' hit the guy she loves.

It is a horrible tendence that girls make themselves up to cheer their man and somehow forget about who they are- in terms of forbidding or forgetting their origin personality.

Pathetically I am one of them. Sometimes I dont quite remember who I am and what I do like to do. I arrange my leisure schedule according to my bf's interest. I go shopping and glance at the kinds of dress which my bf likes. He is happy, therefore I think I am happy.

Another man appeared one day, he is exactly my type, so I started to fathom what he likes. Suddenly I realized the lack of freedom kills myself- ruined my soul and consciousness- it couldnt be right if I refuse to wake up.

It is not easy but here I am. I am extremely rational and loving being a workaholic.
I am willful, lazy and close-minded when I enjoy my own leisure time. I flirt with my type of man in the way I like. I dress in hemp and cotton with the color grey, blue, light yellow and white all the time. No more high heels, flats with bow are neat for me. And I spend more time with my own friends and family now.

Isolated

2010-03-08T14:34:00.004+08:00

How many information do I need to update everyday?

How many people do I need to keep up with for life ?

What sort of ceremonies are necessary?
What kind of behaviors are out of consciousness?

Being isolated is lonely.
However it is simple, quiet and easier for me.

Music and a long walk are all I need.
At least, it is enough for today.

To be extreme

2010-01-27T11:06:00.003+08:00

Since Ken reminded me that I am addicted to dramatic life unconsciously, more or less, I force myself to face this symptom. Being extreme, it is painful for people who live around me. However, the intention of being extreme makes me feel alive.

Paranoid, I am one of them when I devote myself into work/what I really love to do. Food, beverage, chat, breaks are needless. All I would focus is the one, the one I am interested to interact with/ involve in.

Stay in the cold, walking for hours, non stop writing until I figure out and make things clear, keep sweeping til I feel weary, repeat listing to one song til I am sick of it, thinking of one person til I realise he is not the one for me.

I got no idea why I do this to myself, exhausted.

Sharon left today

2009-12-07T15:34:00.002+08:00

There are many 'Sharon' in my life.

The first one was my Local Committee President elected, Sharon Chieh- The most lovely and sweet kiddo I'v ever seen.

The second one was my Member Committee teammate, Sharon Shao- her words is always beyond people's imagination. We both love bollywood movies.

The third one is my current plurk mate, Sharon Cheng- I didnt really know her until we were addicted to Plurk few months ago. I like the way how she treat friends.

The other one is my ex-colleague, Sharon Fung- she just became my 'ex' colleague today. We went to the same university and found incredible fun in Thailand together. She is the Sharon I mentioned in the title of this entry. The thing is, I dont usually share my private life with colleagues. She is the one who became my friend before being my colleague. It is also the reason I feel a bit depressed today.

People come and go without notice. It is still hard for me to get familiar with new people in working environment within days or weeks.

I will miss you, girl. Bon Voyage.

Very Lost

2009-11-06T14:38:00.002+08:00

Most of the time I got a goal, or several ones. As I'v been told, pursuing goals is how people keep their life on. And I was quite enjoy the sense of achievement when I did it.

Last night I was talking to my sis, asked her why I got upset so easily. She said that I have too much desires, in terms of material needs and the demands of interpersonal relationships. The desires control how I think and how I act. Never let it go, until I hold what I want in hand.

Most of my friends, or closed friends know that I am a control freak. I set up my timetable and always make things done in time. It doesnt sound sexy at all, pathetically I do live like this way- a typical 'check' person- check each to-do item, then arrange time/resource to complete the tasks. When I finish one, good, here comes the next. Check check check, never stops.

My sis asked me an interesting question, 'what if you lose control of what you want to control, what do you really lose?' I pondered for a while, said, 'Nothing necessary, except for my working performance of project mamagement.' Ironically, my sis replied, 'What you always try to take control is not only for work; more than half of your time, you tend to control everything except your mind.'

So true, what she said makes me hesitated about the way I live. Or the way I used to believe in.

What is important to me? What the driving factors in my life?
About the people whom I do care, what do they want? What I can do for them?

Responsibility and check-on-schedule probably are not the only answer for life, there are much know to know, to experience, and to enjoy. It might be time for me to stop, and leave some space for myself to think about it.

The value of living

2009-09-01T10:40:00.002+08:00

I asked Ivy about her opinion toward the value of living, her answer is 'be happy'.
People set goals for their life, 'family, career, fortune, health' are common ideas.

I estimate that there are another 50 years to live in my life.
What do I really want?
And what does really matter to me?
It is hard to figure out a certain answer.

-Having family versus living along.
-Successful career versus carefree life style
-Own a great fortune versus living a basic life
-Being health versus living life to the most and cut it out at the peak of life line

It is way to extreme to divide these possibilities as above.
Yet it would lead to different direction in terms of having opposite attitude toward life.

What do I really want?
I will give myself another year to ponder over.

Focus

2009-08-12T15:49:00.002+08:00

Recently I realized that few things can make me truly happy, such as watching romantic/comic movies, chatting with real friends, cleaning the house (I have pysophobia indeed), reading an inspiring book, spending time with family, and being focused.

Being focused makes me fulling involved in something/certain situation, which spurs my potential and energy, then it brings me heaps of creativities and possibilities. It rocks!

Unfortunately this kind of spirit only happens occasionally. I called it 'flow'. People who are interestd in the 'flow' concept can refer to Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, he has great idea about flow and creativity. I met him on campus few years ago. His speech was pretty inspiring.

I am looking for the pattern of being focused (probably there is no pattern/ rule/ tips to be focus). It is way too spontaneous and uncontroallable at this stage. I will need to calm myself down and figure out how it works to increase my capacity in terms of equipping myself with more productivities and abilities to increase life quality.

That's it for now, I need to go back to work and BEING FOCUSED.

My first job

2009-06-15T16:42:00.002+08:00

Dear all,

Here comes a new entry since I'v stepped into another stage of life. Yes I am 25 and it is my first job ever. I work for Wharton Brain Trust group as an assistant consultant. There are only 8 to 12 employees in this corp. What we do is offering managerial consulting service to different field of industries. We provide strategic planning, marketing and sales management, human resource strategy consulting services and general trainig courses.

Small company has its own pros and cons. My working time is quite flexible but the working load is unendurable at the same time. Young colleagues and plain environment bring me both fun and boring experiences. Crazy amounts of opportunities lead to fast grow-up of self-learning and strong impact on emotional experiences.

I am a bit confused of what I really want sometimes. Yet I am be so sure of what I dislike. For instance, I can never figure out what sort of person I will become in next three years. Meanwhile I can dig out the nature of my job and keep working hard for it since I truly believe in.

People always dream about those things they will hardly reach. I do the same as well. However, there is one thing certainly,'I choose what I love, and I do love what I am doing'.

Life is tough sometimes, fortunately I got supports from different group of people and communities. The thoughts of paying back and sending the love forward exist in my mind all the time, I think it is the main thing makes me keep going.

My Aussie life

2008-09-16T10:11:00.001+08:00

G'day!
I have not updated this blog for ages. Most of the time I prefer keeping diary in Chinese on my wretch blog (www.wretch.cc/blog/vicachic), tending to maintain my Chinese writing and network back in Taiwan.

Currently I study for Graduate Diploma of Marketing Communication, from Feb to Nov this year in the University of Canberra. It is all about marketing, brand management, public relations, advertising and media relations. This subject arouses my interest strongly, meanwhile it contributes to the conneciton of my past experience and future perspective.

The life in Australia is truly relaxing. I study hard for my own interests, then travel a lot to see this big country.
Most Aussie can not believe Taiwan is the same size as Tasamania but consist of 23 million population. The density is just like putting all Australian into Tasamania and then squeese another 2 million people in.It brings the different concept of distance and space between Taiwanese and Australian.

While I traveled to Albury, Bendigo, Melbourne, Philip Island, Lake entrance, Cooma, Merimbula, Batemans Bay, Sydney, Port Maquarie, Tweed Head, Byron Bay, Ballina, Brisbane, and Surfers Paradise, each place displays a different face of Australia. The climate, architecture, food, dress, and people all contribute to the fascinating appearance of each city and small town.

At the beginning of this adventure, I compared Taiwan and Australia by recognising the familiar elements in Aussie with strong Taiwanese perspective. Now, I see what Aussie got and use it to build up my value and future blueprint.

Besides the traveling and life experience, I met a lot of fantastic Australians who are really friendly and taking good care of me. Harry, my counsellor from Rotary Club of Mitchell-Gungahlin, his wife Dorothy, and all their family and friends have become my support and my permanent Aussie family.

So far, I found my short term career goal in terms of being a human resource head hunter or a public relation practioner. Long term goal has been set up as the initiator and coordinator of international community project which focuses on education and entrepreneurship.

Now, I admire sunshine, walking and smiling at everyone I meet. I enjoy keeping myself in calm and silence and following the flow, then allowing my body to follow my mind and soul. Is it the happiest status in my life? I wont say so, because I believe all the possible potential.

Summer 07

2007-07-02T11:19:00.000+08:00

Summer is not my favorite season, but most amazing stories of my life happened under scorching sunshine. It's too hard for me to list down all particular years of events that make my life impressive, as much as I can remember, they includes several wind band concerts in stella matutina girls high school, Vancouver times, the first time I met David, the advanture since I entered university,Asia pacific local committee president conference , the begining and the end of my AIESEC career, happy travel tours with Ken, the challenge of institute of Human Resource Management, and now, I am sitting in China Trust Commercial Bank for internship.

Speaking of internship, I found myself turn out to be a managerial oriented person this summer.
Used to be studying in social science, politics, economics, society, and democracy are what I was focus on, since entering college of management for institute, my learning focus shifted. It doesnt mean that I only pay attention on single subject in a period of time, FOCUS means the learning target which I would put it as my first priority. Summer 2007, I participated NXP talet program, visited several companies for term papers, joined China Trust internship, and I am pursuing a Global integrated enterprose program of Advantech this week.

It's quite hard and weird to review all my life experience and try to make coordination. Life is not like a course that you can make a syllabus, nor a report that you can draw it an outline. Dividing by timeline or age, the groups of people, or some turning point of life stage, it's still complicated to figure out how life did go on. People would say it's not necessary to worry about the past, however, I am the kind of person who draw the future blueprint after refering to the footprint I left.

Life goes on year by year, I will be in Aussie in next July, and it will be winnter there.
Time does fly, the space shifts, and memories piles. Things couldnt be better than ever since I enjoy every moment under sunshine.

year 2007 update

2007-02-09T17:01:00.000+08:00

Here comes another Faburary and it reveals that I am already 23 years old. I have not updated this blog for ages, most of time I keep journal in Chinese in my wretch blog vicachic. Recently, I am on 5 weeks vacation, being lazy staying at home or just fooling around in Taichung/ Taipei. In next Fabraury of year 2008, I am going to Canberra, Australia for market communication study. Just want to do a quick update, not much to say though.
Since I chat with old friends of university and some from AIESEC, I found out that my current life is quite simple and steady. All my life "stakeholders" are families, classmates of grad school, bf, grad project teammates, professors, and some AIESECers. I seldom contact with friends who I hanged out before university, the past is neglected. It seems that everything is smooth and my life couldnt be better, which makes me bored, however. Nothing is harder than making people around you to understand that you are not going to ruin the current happiness but just trying to let go of some trivias.

Wrap Up for Year 2005

2006-01-02T12:02:00.000+08:00

2005 SURVEY

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
yeah, I think so,at least it ended up w/good results.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
hmmmm,back to MC team and enjoy the discussion w/my teamamtes,had several nice travels w/Ken, got permission of grad skul.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?

The last day of Dec, funny discussion with teammates(the Member Committee kindergarten,lolz) and gathering w/Ken.

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
a concert in Kaohsiung

5) Who were you with?
friends of PE95

6) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
yes, but we are still friends now.

7) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yeah~not much but precious

8) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
yeah I did lose someone once, but we are alrite for now.

9) What was your favorite song in 2005?
I m always addicted to different song in different phase of life.
SOUL'd Out-I'm Living for Today,趙學而-每隔兩秒,
未成年主張-找尋你呼喚你-強辯樂團,黃義達-顯微鏡下的愛情,Let's Get it Started,Pump it,
Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter,王力宏-花田錯,張學友-雪狼湖,Mandy Moore-Only Hope,
劉允樂-分開的意思,孫燕姿-完美的一天,范瑋琪-你,如果的事,Jesse Spencer - Molly Smiles

11) What was the biggest lie you told in 2005?
"Okay,I will make this due by tmw",actually I was doing sth else n didnt plan to cope with the thing I promised;"I can't attend it,thx for ur invitation,I really hope I can go",when someone asked me for date but I found it disgusted.

12) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
well, I dont remember that someone lied, actually I dont care abt this though.

13) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
nope, maybe I did bitching someone sometimes.:P

14) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
spend more time with my family.

15) What are your plans for 2006?

Get enough transportation fee to offer my dreams to each destination I want.

2005-08-24T19:02:00.000+08:00

From the end of June, I have spend my summer more than 8 weeks for now. What did I do in these days?Well, I spend some time struggling for staying in AIESEC, trying to find the balance of communication with family, learning to define wuz so-called relationship with double 'K', having good time w/some special friends, n making the decision of my future(right after graduated). So far, I m doing ok on these items,about AIESEC, I decide to stay in AIESEC as MCER_LC development, still doing branding, LC coaching, ER knowledge Mangement, National LCER coordination, project quality/image management, e-paper editing, ER system set up, and also help out some other related media stuff, also the NST work in MC. About family, it's hard to figure out the best way for communication/being alone with especially when I talked about my career w/them,different expectation brings disagreement,*sigh*but I still love them.About relationship stuff, all I can say is that I really had great time w/my 'special' friend, these moments will be the most beautiful part for my summer 2005. However, it's not easy to define wut the relationship is among people clearly, all that I do care is whether I m happy at that moment w/someone I appreciate together. About my future, my parents wants me to go for graduation skul but I would like to join traineeship /get a job first, n then go abroad to study.Aite, these above r some rough draft of this summer.
I still got 3 weeks for vacation*yeah*, unfortunately I also got a looooong working list to check then.

Good luck to my MC teammates in India, I miss u guys heaps.Now I m taking my working list in hand,trying to work as hard as I can, n waiting for ur bring-back sharing n tons of fresh ideas. Anyway, take care n have fun,my dears.

2005-07-16T22:17:00.000+08:00

2005 sNCF in CLLC, all delegation. The 6th National Conference in my AIESEC career.

2005-07-01T00:13:00.000+08:00

the background of power point or my 'Team Learning ' final report/presentation.:P Finally I make it due !!!

2005-06-09T02:30:00.001+08:00

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2005-06-09T02:29:00.000+08:00

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2005-06-09T02:25:00.000+08:00

I was mad, dont ask me to set up everthing in the last minute!I hate random annoying stuff~

2005-06-09T02:21:00.000+08:00

I m proud of u guys~they r my best friends/roommate/classmates, I m glad that they r gonna go to India for traineeship of DT project for 2 months this summer!!!

2005-06-09T02:19:00.000+08:00

i like it

2005-06-09T02:16:00.000+08:00

new stuff

recent update

2005-05-04T05:16:00.001+08:00

AIESEC status:
I start to receive the MC transition and hit the road for AIESEC0506 teamwork.I m stressed but still look forward to it, at least, give myself a chance to learning by taking such a responsibility.Besides, I m pissed off by the project w/KS government, some government official's brains r just like swamps that makes me stuck n unwilling to keep moving.The absolute stuffy bureancrazy style is so annoying.:s Once I can't get rid of it, I will work harder to conquer, damn gov stuff!!

Campus Life:

As usual, I took lots of courses but not work that hard as I should do, however I finished my midterms and keep struggling w/tons of paper work and presentation stuff these days.Well, I guess the thing I should avoid first is skipping the morning class.

Health:
asthma,sleeplessness,neck sparin due to a stupid reason:S,sunstroke.
argh, at least I lost 4 pounds in 2 weeks.

Random thoughts:
1.I start to afraid of losing some friends especially when I accumulate the friends network n broaden the range I shift in daily life.It's kinda needless scruple cos I know I will receive and learn more when I hit the road, but I just felt a compulsion to set up another blog in Chinese to keep in touch w/my univ,high skul,n other old friends.
2.My world is so small n rigid, I feel like that when I started to build up another photoalbum,"http://www.wretch.cc/album/vicachic". By edit catalogs of photos, the main scopes r 'friends','family','aiesec',n 'campus'.The lack of fresh stuff/friends/environment makes me ill at ease. Not much conslusion, I may just need another trip abroad or meet some new ppl.

that's all for now, abt other stuffs,I will keep updating later.

2005-05-04T05:16:00.000+08:00

recent favorite wallpaper

2005-05-04T05:13:00.000+08:00

sometimes I just stay up too late n too tired to fall in sleep

2005-05-04T05:12:00.000+08:00

most time I just work in my room w/headphone

2005-05-04T05:08:00.000+08:00

Another trip of AIESEC career

my thoughts abt 2005wNCF

2005-02-02T11:28:00.000+08:00

Vega Chang

2005-02-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

Vega Chang

Vega's blog here it is,check it out.

After 2005NCF

2005-02-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

It's complicated to describe how I feel now,2005wNCF in NTU is the last national conference in my LCP career,with LCP team,loved P team,n my lovely staffs n members.Probably,I may extend my AIESEC career further even after this con,going w/other great individuals n keeping up gd works in following days;however,it will be differene from now,will be another blueprint but my memories filled with u guys does never fade away,for good n ever.

Electra Translation

2005-01-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

《伊萊特娜》

索福克里斯
著作：西元前410年
英譯：R. C. Jebb
中譯：蕭偉琪

出場人物

歐列斯特斯（ORESTES）
－阿加曼農（Agamemnon）及克來天奈斯拖（CLYTEMNESTRA）之子

伊萊特娜（ELECTRA）
－歐列斯特斯之姐

克莉索斯密斯（CHRYSOTHEMIS）
－歐列斯特斯之妹

老教師
－歐列斯特斯從前的教師或侍從

克萊頓尼司垂雅（CLYTEMNESTRA）

哀及司瑟司（AEGISTHUS）

美錫尼女子合唱隊

Mute Persons

皮拉德斯（PYLADES）
－思卓菲亞斯（Strophius）之子、克里薩之王、歐列斯特之友

克萊頓尼司垂雅的女僕

場景

在美錫尼的佩羅皮達宮殿前，清晨的初陽閃耀，老教師跟歐列斯特斯及皮拉德斯從觀眾左側進場。
________________________________________老教師

阿加曼農之子，你正在特洛伊中帶領著我們的軍隊！現在請用你那充滿慾望的雙眼，瞧著！你所懷念的古老阿哥斯，那神聖的景象來自被驅逐的伊納科斯（Inachus）之女；歐列斯特斯，瞧著！那是以戮狼之神為名的萊斯（Lycean）廣場，左邊是海拉神殿，就是我們之前曾經去過，你認為幾乎是由黃金打造而成，卻時常被鮮血玷污的佩羅皮達；從你們祖先殺戮的時代開始，在你們母親及姐妹的譴責下，我就帶你們來這裡，幫助你們成為真正的男人，好為你們的祖先復仇。

所以，歐列斯特斯，現在跟你的摯友－皮拉德斯，看著吧！我們的計畫馬上就要實現了！太陽閃耀的光芒正喚醒鳥兒明亮的歌聲，繁星垂佈的黑夜已經褪去。

從前，走向佩羅皮達的每一個人都要深思熟慮；現在，不需要遲疑，打造豐功偉業的時機到了！

歐列斯特斯

真正的朋友和擁護者，你們要怎樣對咱們的軍隊證明你們的忠誠呢？像是在漫漫長途競賽中的駿馬，儘管老了，也不會在危險中喪失勇氣，只會豎起雙耳，更努力的向前衝刺，成為我們第一線的先鋒。我將會對你們展現我的決心，請仔細聆聽我的一字一句，如果我遺漏了任何一部分，也請立刻指正我。

當我去找阿波羅神，請教如何為我父親復仇時，太陽神回答我說：一定要單獨秘密行動，不可以有其他的武裝或人馬，我非得抓住正當復仇的機會不可。既然神傳達這樣的旨意，你們必須進入遠方的宮殿，當你們有機會找到入口時，就馬上進入，一旦成功了立即回報給我。你們巧妙的拿捏好時機，他們就完全不會察覺到了。完成你們的計謀，成為阿波羅最完美的聯盟伙伴，以你們的誓言對他們證實，歐列斯特斯已死於非命－亡於阿波羅的急速戰車輪下－要說得跟真的故事一樣。

同時，我將即刻為我父親的墳墓加冕，奉上美酒以及華麗的貢品；然後把藏在灌木叢裡的青銅骨灰甕帶回來。這樣的假象，可以讓他們開心的認為，我已經如火苗中燒毀的灰燼一般，完完全全不存在了。你以為我會在意這樣不吉祥的預兆嗎？也不過是可以換來名望的假死罷了。我相信這世上沒有不吉祥的勝利。我以前曾經看過智者死於虛榮的名望中，然而，他們保有的是永恆的聲望；如同我現在所深信的，我應該擺脫引人注目的人生，好讓焦點轉到我的對手身上。

噢！我的祖國，以及你們土地上的神呀！請賜給我這一路上的好運,！我的祖先們，我將帶著神的旨意重現公正及神聖，讓我洗去這塊土地上的恥辱，我將重新擁有、重建我的王國！

好了！我的老師，你只要等著看，我們兩個會努力向前，成為冒險精神的領袖，重現光榮輝煌的時代！

伊萊特娜
（在裡面吶喊）我的天呀！

老教師

聽著！我的孩子，我想，門裡傳來女傭的哀號耶！

歐列斯特斯

有這麼糟嗎？難道我們該待在這繼續聽她哀悼？

老教師

不不不，在這之前，以公平起見，我們該尋求洛席厄司（Loxias）的意見，為你的祖先傾倒奠酒，將會帶來全面的勝利。

老教師由觀眾左側退場，歐列斯特斯與皮拉德斯在右側－伊萊特娜穿著簡陋的由宮殿進入。

伊萊特娜
吟唱著
systema

喔，聖潔的太陽、空氣、穹蒼！你們多久能夠聽我訴說一次心裡的悲傷？夜晚來臨時，這瘋狂的世界正在撕裂淌血的胸膛！悲慘的人們在遠方受苦，我為不幸的祖先痛哭著，又該如何面對這樣的黑夜？沒有被賜與愛力士戰神力量的人們，就像是我的母親以及她的同伴，被殘忍的斧頭劈開腦袋，有如樵夫砍下橡樹一般痛快。我無法抑止心中的痛苦，尤其想到我父親那慘烈的死去。

antisystema

我永遠無法停止這輓歌以及淒涼的哀嘆，當我望見微顫的星斗、慘澹的日光、掠殺自己後代的夜鶯，就會無止息的嚎啕，對著我父親的門放聲大哭。

喔，冥王和普西芬妮！噢，赫密士的靈啊！你們嚴厲的詛咒，天神可怕的女兒－
Erinyes，你們看見被暴力掠奪的生命了嗎？來吧！請幫助我，為祖先報仇，討回我兄弟的命；我已經無力承受這樣的災難了呀！

當伊萊特娜結束她的哀悼（美錫尼女子合唱隊進場，接下來是伊萊特娜與其的應答對唱）

合唱隊
Strophe1（第1向左方舞動時唱的歌詞）

啊！伊萊特娜，你這來自不幸母親的孩子，為什麼受到Agamemnon不絕的輓詩如此的桎梏，為什麼被你邪惡母親那很久以前的詭計邪惡誘捕，並且透過卑劣的手遭到要死背叛？麻木那唆使者的行為吧，我會盡可能的替你禱告﹗

伊萊特娜

啊，思想高尚的少女，你們已經來安慰我的悲痛。我感受到了，它沒有逃過我的眼睛；但是我不能留下這項未完成的任務，或停止為我不幸的人生哀悼。
啊，每個願意回應我心情的朋友，就留下我如此胡言亂語吧！離開我，我請求你們﹗

合唱隊
antistrophe 1（向右轉時的回舞歌）

但是你要永遠為了你的祖先哀悼嗎？已經失去的必定會流逝的。不僅如此，這是一段致命的不幸，想要跳脫就必須先體驗全然的痛苦，這裡沒有來自惡靈的解救。嗯，你能夠開始學著喜歡這般的苦難了嗎？

伊萊特娜

忘記父母慘死事實的孩子是愚蠢的。不，為了伊堤斯，為我的靈魂悲傷哀悼的人，有如宙斯的信使那般悲痛得發狂。啊，悲哀之后－奈歐比，我將你視為我的神，永遠能在岩石墳墓中聽見你的哭泣﹗

合唱隊
strophe 2（第2向左方舞動時唱的歌詞）

不只是對凡人，我這帶著無盡悲哀的女兒，連呼吸的氣息都比其他的姊妺更薄弱。克莉索斯密斯和伊芙那莎，也仍孤立的過著他們的餘生。而在美錫尼的領土上，歐列斯特斯等著宙斯和善的引導，帶他前往他的遺產及土地。

伊萊特娜

是的，我毫不倦怠的等著他，當我每日繼續在那悲慘的路途上前進時，沒有結婚也沒有子嗣，忍著眼淚，承受那悲痛的無限消磨；但是他已經曾經遭受的苦痛。我聽到了什麼消息，是希望落空嗎？他渴望能跟我們在一起，但是，雖然他渴望，但是他從來沒有達到的決心。

合唱隊
antistrophe 2（第二向右轉時的回舞歌）

勇敢，我的女兒，要勇敢！宙斯仍然握有天上大權，為我們看管理一切，把你的怨言留給他吧；別忘記你的仇敵，但是要克制對他們過度的憤怒；時光的流逝會讓一切歸於平靜。該留心的是Agamemnon的兒子，還有住在牧羊河岸的阿克龍盛行之神。

伊萊特娜

不僅如此，生活的最好的部分已經絕望的離開我，我已經沒有餘力；我正為了沒有孩子而悲傷憔悴。誰不喜歡勝利的徽章？但是，我就像那些令人鄙視的外族，站在我父親的靈堂中，穿著奇裝異服默默的為父親哀悼。

合唱隊
Strophe3（第3向左方舞動時唱的歌詞）

悲慘的是，他那返回的聲音，當祖先在節慶上被供養時，強風快速冷冽的掃過古老的青銅劍梢。狡猾的是陰謀者，慾望謀殺者，一個可怕的形狀的恐怖深淵；操縱的是凡人、還是神？

伊萊特娜

噢，痛苦的那天！這輩子前所未有的苦難；噢，那個夜晚，那不可言傳的恐怖宴席，我父親從他雙手中察覺的殘酷跡象，那背叛、變節而被自殺、俘獲的慘劇，注定帶給我無限的悲痛！偉大奧林匹亞神啊，請賜給他們報復跟折磨，永遠不准許快樂的光輝降於他們身上，誰教他們成就了如此該死的行為！

合唱隊
antistrophe 3（第三向右轉時的回舞歌）

建議你別再說了；你難道沒有察覺到那殘忍的痛苦，已經深陷你心嗎？這只會加重你的苦難，慍怒敵方神靈；這樣的衝突不應該再越演越烈了。

伊萊特娜

我是被迫的呀，被恐怖的原因強迫著；我知道自己的激情，它無法逃過我的注意；但是，正因為原因如此可怕，所以無法控制我生命中這些瘋狂的控訴。有誰能夠真正的安慰我、有助於我？是那些婦女教會的耳語嗎？想要慰問我的人們，克制，忍耐！這樣的苦痛，已被歸類於那些無法治癒的病症；我永遠無法從我的悲傷中獲得解脫，哀訴也是無窮無盡的了。

合唱隊
Epode（古希臘抒情詩之第三部分）

至少它是存在於愛裡的，像一位忠實的母親一樣，我勸阻你不要在苦難上添加痛苦。

伊萊特娜

但是我的悲慘又要如何衡量？嗯，我該怎樣忽視死者？那不虔誠的信念本就源於凡人嗎？我絕對不會認同；在充滿歡愉的地方，我還是堅持理想，也許可以說是我自私，但我不允許任何人汙辱我的祖先！

如果所有不幸將消失於煙飛塵滅間，殺人者能夠以血償還，所有的尊重歸諸於人，所有的懼怕歸諸於天，一切苦難就能化為無形了。

合唱隊的領導

我來了，我的孩子，我將熱切的給你我所有的福祉；但是如果我表達得不好，你也不須因此消沉；因為我們將跟隨著你。

伊萊特娜

我的朋友們，我為我的怨言而感到慚愧；但是，看在這從種種的折磨上，請容忍我。有多少貴族的女子能夠承受，這般失去祖先的磨難？當這些不幸日日夜夜久久不退時，他們全盛的力量還存在嗎？我，首先從令人生厭的母親那裡，接收了難以忍受的敵意；接著，我與謀殺我父親的兇手住在同一個地方；他們統治我，並且扣留我需要的一切。

想想我獨自度過的那些歲月吧！當我看見哀及司瑟司，坐在我的父親的寶座上，穿著他的長袍，並且旋轉著祖先的爐底、倒著祭酒時的情況；我看見了加冕全程的暴行，躺在我父親的床上、在我那不幸母親的身邊，如果要更殘忍的說，母親就是那暴君的妻子；即使她受到如此的詛咒，也不懼怕厄里倪厄斯（希臘復仇女神之一）；不僅如此，她好像因此歡騰，從發現她背叛我的父親的日子開始，她唱著、舞著，並且為別人奉獻著。

但是，看著我的不幸，悲哀的居所、那以祖先為名，但早已不聖潔的宴席，我也只能獨自哭泣；我已經盡力遏止我的悲慟了。這個女人，頂著貴族的頭銜，高聲用辱罵叱責我︰「不敬且充滿怨恨的女孩，即使你失去了父親，在這世上就沒有其他悲苦的人了嗎？邪惡在正毀滅你，只有地獄的那些神才能免除你的罪孽了吧！」

她如此的侮辱我；但是當歐列斯特斯來的時候︰她走近我，開始大哭：「你怎麼可以這樣對我？這是你該有的行為嗎？誰從我手中奪走了歐列斯特斯，還偷偷的把他送出去？一定會有報應的！」她尖叫著，旁邊的人也開始對他感到同情。但我還是希望，能夠找到歐列斯特斯來結束這些悲痛。但世事總是不能盡如人意，他早已耗盡我先前的奢望。在這樣的情況下，朋友們，根本沒有溫順或表現尊重的空間；事實上，沉重的苦痛沒有給我選擇餘地，所以我只能走上邪惡之路了。

領導者

說吧，哀及司瑟司當時在你身邊還是離開家了？

伊萊特娜

他當然不在場；不要認為如果他在，我就會去應門；何況現下他在戰場上。

領導者

如果是這樣，我可以更自在地與你談話嗎？

伊萊特娜

他不在這，所以你盡管問吧！你想說些什麼？

領導者

我問你，他很快就會回來，還是將被延誤？我很希望能夠知道。

伊萊特娜

他承諾過要來；但是他從未履行諾言。

領導者

是的，一個男人總會為了偉大的事業而有所延誤。

伊萊特娜

但我對他從他不曾延誤。

領導者

要勇敢面對，他太高尚以至於可能失去朋友。

伊萊特娜

我相信你所說的，不然我就不會在這待這麼久了。

領導者

別再說了；我看見你的姐妹從那走出來，克莉索斯密斯，相同祖先和母親之女，手裡拿著陰森的禮物，如同來自地底一般。

克莉索斯密斯穿著富麗，從宮殿進入。

克莉索斯密斯

姐妹，為什麼，你要一再的在公眾面前如此慷慨陳詞？為什麼不能隨著時間的流逝，而停止這些無聊的憤怒跟徒然的放任？我所知道的，是我們共同承受悲傷與困境；如果我有足夠的力量，我一定會表達我所有對他們的愛。現在，依我看來，最好將痛苦的旅程縮短；表現得不夠難過，並不代表我不積極。決心要跟行為並進才行！雖然如此，選擇權在你，而並非全都靠我的建議；但是如果我選擇自由的生活，我們的共同的規定必須得到全然的服從。

伊萊特娜

這樣的確很奇怪，源自想同祖先的女兒，居然能夠輕易的忘記一切祖先的不幸，只記起你的母親！她教過我的全部訓戒；你沒有一項具備。你任意選擇吧，不謹慎、健忘、被你的朋友遺忘，你有任何忠誠的力量嗎？當我盡我所能為祖先復仇時，你給了什麼幫助？你不但沒有給予幫助，還向你的姐妹提出要求？

這樣的怯懦不是更加深我們的痛苦嗎？告訴我，還是讓我來說好了，我如果停止哀悼，我能得到什麼？無法待下來嗎？真是悲慘呀，但對我來說已經夠好的了。我如果惹惱他們，大不了就是一死，在那榮耀的死亡世界，說不定我還比較快樂。但是你的憎恨，現在孤獨的留在祖先被謀殺的事實中，因為你只是空想而不去面對。雖然我現在被應許這般無憂無慮的生活，但是我未來絕不會屈服于他們；富麗的裝飾和奢侈的生活，能夠讓我滿足的不是這些，而是我擁有的良心啊！但是現在，你成為那個被稱做世上最高尚男人的女兒，被叫做你母親的孩子；因此，你的卑劣將被所有人看見，你背叛了你的祖先以及所有宗族。

領導者
別再說出憤恨的話了，我求你們！我希望妳們兩個都能安好，如果你，伊萊特娜能，學著從他人的忠告中學習，克莉索斯密斯，你也是。

Latest Pic update

2005-01-10T19:18:00.001+08:00

Year 2005 came,what did I do in 2004 then?
Pictures tell,check it out.

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my PE95 buddies

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my loved Teammates

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swimming as sunset

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Jack &me

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¥Õ¨FÆW

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Trip to Kenting,Dec,11-12

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silly xmas cos

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w/my roommates

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xmas party~in red/green:p

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in xmas tunnel w/friends

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one of my xmas present gifts~Ouch Mug~

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Toyland xmas greeting!~:P

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xmas decoration on my desk

2004-12-25T14:31:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas too all ppl who I care.:)

2004-12-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

one my of fav mugs-AIESEC of 2001NTTS in SYLC.:p...I guess I m the most boring chic in the world~

★ Dec. Reading List ★

2004-12-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

1.Un ete autour du cou-Guy Goffette
2.Ames soeurs- J.J. Sempe
3.Terrasse a Rome-Pascal Quignard
4.Une Gourmandise-Muriel Barbery
5.Chocolate for a Woman's Soul-Kay Allenbaugh
6.We are What we eat-Mark Winegardner
7.Back When We Were Growups-Anne Tyler
8.Midnight All Day-Hanif Kureishi
9.Private Pleasures-Joanna Ross
10.Memoirs of a Geisha-Arthur Golden
11.The Budda of Suburbia--Hanif Kureishi
12.The Acid House-Irvine Welsh

2004-12-01T04:08:00.000+08:00

When I talk about AIESEC,the place I can share,take challenges,go for the same goal as a team,meet incredible individual,make friends,n realize myself.For now,I set up my AIESEC career from 2002 to 2007,in the period of time,no matter what position or what opportunities I take,everything I do is just for fulfill the better future of AIESEC in Taiwan.

2004-12-01T03:59:00.000+08:00

My girls~Here they r!Virginia,Doris,me,Yvonne,Plus n mayday.

2004-12-01T03:57:00.000+08:00

Enjoy hot pot in dorm w/my girls:p

2004-12-01T03:55:00.000+08:00

I have the best family in the world.:)Miss n love u guys soooo much.

I m here.Where to go?

2004-11-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

Nov,26th,2004.This moment,I m here.But wuz the next?n where to go? It's time for me to make a decision,it's not sth like life-changed things but it's gonna make some difference to my life for sure.Browsing,pondering,talking,n back to myself,I just wonder wuz the real me.Should I say yes to the origin passion n faith?or try to live safely? I think it's silly to say so cos I'v knew the answer to it.:)

2004-11-20T13:23:00.001+08:00

another mix in high skul age

2004-11-20T13:23:00.000+08:00

mix which I made in high skul

2004-11-20T12:52:00.001+08:00

colored vision

2004-11-20T12:52:00.000+08:00

just me,I like this pic.

The distance among ppl

2004-11-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

Updating my web space,xanga,friendster,v-times,asianavenue,photo album,everyone's connected,n hi5;Checking my e-mail in Yahoo,@.net,gmail,hotmail,n student.com;browing all post n journal of friends';talking to ppl thro msn n skype,above is what I do everyday.

As a friend told me,'U r really a internet chic',Yes I m,but who doesnt?Just different from degree though.

Why people do so nowadays?For connecting ppl around the world?

I just wonder how to measure the distance among ppl especially thro internet age as today.It's interesting that I may sit in front of my pc all night,talking to ppl who r million miles away,but neglect roommates just nextby me.

Whom should I spend more time with,pay attention to,n take care of?
Just follow my feeling n accept the result of relationship w/ppl?

Cherish the moment,cherish ppl around u,cherish what u have then.....
About those fantasies far away,I choose to preserve as the best memories in part of life for good.

2004-11-19T15:43:00.000+08:00

The distance among ppl

2004-11-11T20:49:00.000+08:00

sketch for Design class,lolz

2004-11-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

my sketch~guess who it is?:p

The moment of Life

2004-11-08T05:40:00.000+08:00

Watched the movie,'13 going on 30',which talks about a 13 yrs old girl wish to being 30,she does make it n become 30 yrs old due to wishing dust.The girl,Jenna,finds out how wonderful her life could be when she enjoy her 30 ages(party,brand,n career things).However,Jenna also finds out what she missed in past years,the most important part of life,family,the true relationship w/ppl around her,n her destiny love.In the end,Jenna realizes the things she should cherish n catch up,finally the wishing dust bring her back to 13 yrs old to make up for those precious timing.

I know it sounds like a cliche fairy tale,but it does remind me to look back on what I did n missed.
Wuz the most important things for me?What did I spend most time on right now?I m always busy in daily life but wut I m going for?

Just back to basic n look at everyone,everything around,I mean really pay attention on,n think about what they exactly mean to me.Slow down the speed of life n catch each moment,I wanna try to be the real person of real life from now on.

2004-11-08T05:38:00.000+08:00

13 going on 30

ZoZo

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ZoZo

2004-11-06T08:03:00.000+08:00

glow bubble pen:p

Friday nite

2004-11-06T07:55:00.000+08:00

After the workshop of Carrefour,I had great dinner w/Ada,took a walk along Love River w/Ada n Ou.It was boring when I attended the party at Alice's,so I went out the venue n bought a bubble pen then.I love it so much(it can even radiate:p),but friends said da I m the most immature boring chic in the world.lolz~ aite,I admit that I m so bored even sit here,take pic of the toy n write a blog for it after party at 8am right now.

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i love it:p

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here it is~

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my bubble pen~

Happy 8p for this moment

2004-11-05T04:04:00.000+08:00

Just talked to Virginia,Doris,n Yvvone for hours,found out the best thing among us is that each of us has different problem but we have each other to deal with it togehter.Browsing the pix we took when Happy 8P set up at May,2004,so called'Happy Planning Weekend' brings me most sweet memories even we were all suffered that time.We have went thro many for 6 months already,I can feel the growth of the team n the support from it.I dare say that I m the most happy one this moment....love u guys heaps. http://photo.pchome.com.tw/s06/vicachic2/book2/

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my lovely LC members,just half of them,taken in JFM,2004@TPLC

V-links

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★ V-blog ★
http://vicachic.blogspot.com/
★ V-Xanga ★
http://www.xanga.com/vickeyism
★ V-times★
http://mypaper.pchome.com.tw/news.php/vicachic
★ V-pix ★
http://photo.pchome.com.tw/s02/vicachic/ http://photo.pchome.com.tw/s02/vicachic2
★ V-Asianavenue ★
http://www.asianavenue.com/Members/Me/personalpage.html?MEMBER=Vickeyism

★ V-Group ★
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/AP2004_Taiwan/

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Love River,nearby my campus.

2004-11-04T14:43:00.000+08:00

exhausted after accouting exam:s

exhausted

2004-11-04T14:13:00.000+08:00

Just finished accouting exam,skiped Design class now.I can't believe that there is still one meeting tonite n 2 more midterms next week!
Gonna meet Edison to get those great india album later,time for nap now!:p