Most of the time I got a goal, or several ones. As I'v been told, pursuing goals is how people keep their life on. And I was quite enjoy the sense of achievement when I did it.
Last night I was talking to my sis, asked her why I got upset so easily. She said that I have too much desires, in terms of material needs and the demands of interpersonal relationships. The desires control how I think and how I act. Never let it go, until I hold what I want in hand.
Most of my friends, or closed friends know that I am a control freak. I set up my timetable and always make things done in time. It doesnt sound sexy at all, pathetically I do live like this way- a typical 'check' person- check each to-do item, then arrange time/resource to complete the tasks. When I finish one, good, here comes the next. Check check check, never stops.
My sis asked me an interesting question, 'what if you lose control of what you want to control, what do you really lose?' I pondered for a while, said, 'Nothing necessary, except for my working performance of project mamagement.' Ironically, my sis replied, 'What you always try to take control is not only for work; more than half of your time, you tend to control everything except your mind.'
So true, what she said makes me hesitated about the way I live. Or the way I used to believe in.
What is important to me? What the driving factors in my life?
About the people whom I do care, what do they want? What I can do for them?
Responsibility and check-on-schedule probably are not the only answer for life, there are much know to know, to experience, and to enjoy. It might be time for me to stop, and leave some space for myself to think about it.
Friday, November 06, 2009
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
The value of living
I asked Ivy about her opinion toward the value of living, her answer is 'be happy'.
People set goals for their life, 'family, career, fortune, health' are common ideas.
I estimate that there are another 50 years to live in my life.
What do I really want?
And what does really matter to me?
It is hard to figure out a certain answer.
-Having family versus living along.
-Successful career versus carefree life style
-Own a great fortune versus living a basic life
-Being health versus living life to the most and cut it out at the peak of life line
It is way to extreme to divide these possibilities as above.
Yet it would lead to different direction in terms of having opposite attitude toward life.
What do I really want?
I will give myself another year to ponder over.
People set goals for their life, 'family, career, fortune, health' are common ideas.
I estimate that there are another 50 years to live in my life.
What do I really want?
And what does really matter to me?
It is hard to figure out a certain answer.
-Having family versus living along.
-Successful career versus carefree life style
-Own a great fortune versus living a basic life
-Being health versus living life to the most and cut it out at the peak of life line
It is way to extreme to divide these possibilities as above.
Yet it would lead to different direction in terms of having opposite attitude toward life.
What do I really want?
I will give myself another year to ponder over.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Focus
Recently I realized that few things can make me truly happy, such as watching romantic/comic movies, chatting with real friends, cleaning the house (I have pysophobia indeed), reading an inspiring book, spending time with family, and being focused.
Being focused makes me fulling involved in something/certain situation, which spurs my potential and energy, then it brings me heaps of creativities and possibilities. It rocks!
Unfortunately this kind of spirit only happens occasionally. I called it 'flow'. People who are interestd in the 'flow' concept can refer to Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, he has great idea about flow and creativity. I met him on campus few years ago. His speech was pretty inspiring.
I am looking for the pattern of being focused (probably there is no pattern/ rule/ tips to be focus). It is way too spontaneous and uncontroallable at this stage. I will need to calm myself down and figure out how it works to increase my capacity in terms of equipping myself with more productivities and abilities to increase life quality.
That's it for now, I need to go back to work and BEING FOCUSED.
Being focused makes me fulling involved in something/certain situation, which spurs my potential and energy, then it brings me heaps of creativities and possibilities. It rocks!
Unfortunately this kind of spirit only happens occasionally. I called it 'flow'. People who are interestd in the 'flow' concept can refer to Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, he has great idea about flow and creativity. I met him on campus few years ago. His speech was pretty inspiring.
I am looking for the pattern of being focused (probably there is no pattern/ rule/ tips to be focus). It is way too spontaneous and uncontroallable at this stage. I will need to calm myself down and figure out how it works to increase my capacity in terms of equipping myself with more productivities and abilities to increase life quality.
That's it for now, I need to go back to work and BEING FOCUSED.
Monday, June 15, 2009
My first job
Dear all,
Here comes a new entry since I'v stepped into another stage of life. Yes I am 25 and it is my first job ever. I work for Wharton Brain Trust group as an assistant consultant. There are only 8 to 12 employees in this corp. What we do is offering managerial consulting service to different field of industries. We provide strategic planning, marketing and sales management, human resource strategy consulting services and general trainig courses.
Small company has its own pros and cons. My working time is quite flexible but the working load is unendurable at the same time. Young colleagues and plain environment bring me both fun and boring experiences. Crazy amounts of opportunities lead to fast grow-up of self-learning and strong impact on emotional experiences.
I am a bit confused of what I really want sometimes. Yet I am be so sure of what I dislike. For instance, I can never figure out what sort of person I will become in next three years. Meanwhile I can dig out the nature of my job and keep working hard for it since I truly believe in.
People always dream about those things they will hardly reach. I do the same as well. However, there is one thing certainly,'I choose what I love, and I do love what I am doing'.
Life is tough sometimes, fortunately I got supports from different group of people and communities. The thoughts of paying back and sending the love forward exist in my mind all the time, I think it is the main thing makes me keep going.
Here comes a new entry since I'v stepped into another stage of life. Yes I am 25 and it is my first job ever. I work for Wharton Brain Trust group as an assistant consultant. There are only 8 to 12 employees in this corp. What we do is offering managerial consulting service to different field of industries. We provide strategic planning, marketing and sales management, human resource strategy consulting services and general trainig courses.
Small company has its own pros and cons. My working time is quite flexible but the working load is unendurable at the same time. Young colleagues and plain environment bring me both fun and boring experiences. Crazy amounts of opportunities lead to fast grow-up of self-learning and strong impact on emotional experiences.
I am a bit confused of what I really want sometimes. Yet I am be so sure of what I dislike. For instance, I can never figure out what sort of person I will become in next three years. Meanwhile I can dig out the nature of my job and keep working hard for it since I truly believe in.
People always dream about those things they will hardly reach. I do the same as well. However, there is one thing certainly,'I choose what I love, and I do love what I am doing'.
Life is tough sometimes, fortunately I got supports from different group of people and communities. The thoughts of paying back and sending the love forward exist in my mind all the time, I think it is the main thing makes me keep going.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
My Aussie life
G'day!
I have not updated this blog for ages. Most of the time I prefer keeping diary in Chinese on my wretch blog (www.wretch.cc/blog/vicachic), tending to maintain my Chinese writing and network back in Taiwan.
Currently I study for Graduate Diploma of Marketing Communication, from Feb to Nov this year in the University of Canberra. It is all about marketing, brand management, public relations, advertising and media relations. This subject arouses my interest strongly, meanwhile it contributes to the conneciton of my past experience and future perspective.
The life in Australia is truly relaxing. I study hard for my own interests, then travel a lot to see this big country.
Most Aussie can not believe Taiwan is the same size as Tasamania but consist of 23 million population. The density is just like putting all Australian into Tasamania and then squeese another 2 million people in.It brings the different concept of distance and space between Taiwanese and Australian.
While I traveled to Albury, Bendigo, Melbourne, Philip Island, Lake entrance, Cooma, Merimbula, Batemans Bay, Sydney, Port Maquarie, Tweed Head, Byron Bay, Ballina, Brisbane, and Surfers Paradise, each place displays a different face of Australia. The climate, architecture, food, dress, and people all contribute to the fascinating appearance of each city and small town.
At the beginning of this adventure, I compared Taiwan and Australia by recognising the familiar elements in Aussie with strong Taiwanese perspective. Now, I see what Aussie got and use it to build up my value and future blueprint.
Besides the traveling and life experience, I met a lot of fantastic Australians who are really friendly and taking good care of me. Harry, my counsellor from Rotary Club of Mitchell-Gungahlin, his wife Dorothy, and all their family and friends have become my support and my permanent Aussie family.
So far, I found my short term career goal in terms of being a human resource head hunter or a public relation practioner. Long term goal has been set up as the initiator and coordinator of international community project which focuses on education and entrepreneurship.
Now, I admire sunshine, walking and smiling at everyone I meet. I enjoy keeping myself in calm and silence and following the flow, then allowing my body to follow my mind and soul. Is it the happiest status in my life? I wont say so, because I believe all the possible potential.
I have not updated this blog for ages. Most of the time I prefer keeping diary in Chinese on my wretch blog (www.wretch.cc/blog/vicachic), tending to maintain my Chinese writing and network back in Taiwan.
Currently I study for Graduate Diploma of Marketing Communication, from Feb to Nov this year in the University of Canberra. It is all about marketing, brand management, public relations, advertising and media relations. This subject arouses my interest strongly, meanwhile it contributes to the conneciton of my past experience and future perspective.
The life in Australia is truly relaxing. I study hard for my own interests, then travel a lot to see this big country.
Most Aussie can not believe Taiwan is the same size as Tasamania but consist of 23 million population. The density is just like putting all Australian into Tasamania and then squeese another 2 million people in.It brings the different concept of distance and space between Taiwanese and Australian.
While I traveled to Albury, Bendigo, Melbourne, Philip Island, Lake entrance, Cooma, Merimbula, Batemans Bay, Sydney, Port Maquarie, Tweed Head, Byron Bay, Ballina, Brisbane, and Surfers Paradise, each place displays a different face of Australia. The climate, architecture, food, dress, and people all contribute to the fascinating appearance of each city and small town.
At the beginning of this adventure, I compared Taiwan and Australia by recognising the familiar elements in Aussie with strong Taiwanese perspective. Now, I see what Aussie got and use it to build up my value and future blueprint.
Besides the traveling and life experience, I met a lot of fantastic Australians who are really friendly and taking good care of me. Harry, my counsellor from Rotary Club of Mitchell-Gungahlin, his wife Dorothy, and all their family and friends have become my support and my permanent Aussie family.
So far, I found my short term career goal in terms of being a human resource head hunter or a public relation practioner. Long term goal has been set up as the initiator and coordinator of international community project which focuses on education and entrepreneurship.
Now, I admire sunshine, walking and smiling at everyone I meet. I enjoy keeping myself in calm and silence and following the flow, then allowing my body to follow my mind and soul. Is it the happiest status in my life? I wont say so, because I believe all the possible potential.
Monday, July 02, 2007
Summer 07
Summer is not my favorite season, but most amazing stories of my life happened under scorching sunshine. It's too hard for me to list down all particular years of events that make my life impressive, as much as I can remember, they includes several wind band concerts in stella matutina girls high school, Vancouver times, the first time I met David, the advanture since I entered university,Asia pacific local committee president conference , the begining and the end of my AIESEC career, happy travel tours with Ken, the challenge of institute of Human Resource Management, and now, I am sitting in China Trust Commercial Bank for internship.
Speaking of internship, I found myself turn out to be a managerial oriented person this summer.
Used to be studying in social science, politics, economics, society, and democracy are what I was focus on, since entering college of management for institute, my learning focus shifted. It doesnt mean that I only pay attention on single subject in a period of time, FOCUS means the learning target which I would put it as my first priority. Summer 2007, I participated NXP talet program, visited several companies for term papers, joined China Trust internship, and I am pursuing a Global integrated enterprose program of Advantech this week.
It's quite hard and weird to review all my life experience and try to make coordination. Life is not like a course that you can make a syllabus, nor a report that you can draw it an outline. Dividing by timeline or age, the groups of people, or some turning point of life stage, it's still complicated to figure out how life did go on. People would say it's not necessary to worry about the past, however, I am the kind of person who draw the future blueprint after refering to the footprint I left.
Life goes on year by year, I will be in Aussie in next July, and it will be winnter there.
Time does fly, the space shifts, and memories piles. Things couldnt be better than ever since I enjoy every moment under sunshine.
Speaking of internship, I found myself turn out to be a managerial oriented person this summer.
Used to be studying in social science, politics, economics, society, and democracy are what I was focus on, since entering college of management for institute, my learning focus shifted. It doesnt mean that I only pay attention on single subject in a period of time, FOCUS means the learning target which I would put it as my first priority. Summer 2007, I participated NXP talet program, visited several companies for term papers, joined China Trust internship, and I am pursuing a Global integrated enterprose program of Advantech this week.
It's quite hard and weird to review all my life experience and try to make coordination. Life is not like a course that you can make a syllabus, nor a report that you can draw it an outline. Dividing by timeline or age, the groups of people, or some turning point of life stage, it's still complicated to figure out how life did go on. People would say it's not necessary to worry about the past, however, I am the kind of person who draw the future blueprint after refering to the footprint I left.
Life goes on year by year, I will be in Aussie in next July, and it will be winnter there.
Time does fly, the space shifts, and memories piles. Things couldnt be better than ever since I enjoy every moment under sunshine.
Friday, February 09, 2007
year 2007 update
Here comes another Faburary and it reveals that I am already 23 years old. I have not updated this blog for ages, most of time I keep journal in Chinese in my wretch blog vicachic. Recently, I am on 5 weeks vacation, being lazy staying at home or just fooling around in Taichung/ Taipei. In next Fabraury of year 2008, I am going to Canberra, Australia for market communication study. Just want to do a quick update, not much to say though.
Since I chat with old friends of university and some from AIESEC, I found out that my current life is quite simple and steady. All my life "stakeholders" are families, classmates of grad school, bf, grad project teammates, professors, and some AIESECers. I seldom contact with friends who I hanged out before university, the past is neglected. It seems that everything is smooth and my life couldnt be better, which makes me bored, however. Nothing is harder than making people around you to understand that you are not going to ruin the current happiness but just trying to let go of some trivias.
Since I chat with old friends of university and some from AIESEC, I found out that my current life is quite simple and steady. All my life "stakeholders" are families, classmates of grad school, bf, grad project teammates, professors, and some AIESECers. I seldom contact with friends who I hanged out before university, the past is neglected. It seems that everything is smooth and my life couldnt be better, which makes me bored, however. Nothing is harder than making people around you to understand that you are not going to ruin the current happiness but just trying to let go of some trivias.
Monday, January 02, 2006
Wrap Up for Year 2005
2005 SURVEY
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
yeah, I think so,at least it ended up w/good results.
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
hmmmm,back to MC team and enjoy the discussion w/my teamamtes,had several nice travels w/Ken, got permission of grad skul.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
The last day of Dec, funny discussion with teammates(the Member Committee kindergarten,lolz) and gathering w/Ken.
4) Where were you when 2005 began?
a concert in Kaohsiung
5) Who were you with?
friends of PE95
6) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
yes, but we are still friends now.
7) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yeah~not much but precious
8) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
yeah I did lose someone once, but we are alrite for now.
9) What was your favorite song in 2005?
I m always addicted to different song in different phase of life.
SOUL'd Out-I'm Living for Today,趙學而-每隔兩秒,
未成年主張-找尋你呼喚你-強辯樂團,黃義達-顯微鏡下的愛情,Let's Get it Started,Pump it,
Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter,王力宏-花田錯,張學友-雪狼湖,Mandy Moore-Only Hope,
劉允樂-分開的意思,孫燕姿-完美的一天,范瑋琪-你,如果的事,Jesse Spencer - Molly Smiles
11) What was the biggest lie you told in 2005?
"Okay,I will make this due by tmw",actually I was doing sth else n didnt plan to cope with the thing I promised;"I can't attend it,thx for ur invitation,I really hope I can go",when someone asked me for date but I found it disgusted.
12) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
well, I dont remember that someone lied, actually I dont care abt this though.
13) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
nope, maybe I did bitching someone sometimes.:P
14) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
spend more time with my family.
15) What are your plans for 2006?
Get enough transportation fee to offer my dreams to each destination I want.
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
yeah, I think so,at least it ended up w/good results.
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
hmmmm,back to MC team and enjoy the discussion w/my teamamtes,had several nice travels w/Ken, got permission of grad skul.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
The last day of Dec, funny discussion with teammates(the Member Committee kindergarten,lolz) and gathering w/Ken.
4) Where were you when 2005 began?
a concert in Kaohsiung
5) Who were you with?
friends of PE95
6) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
yes, but we are still friends now.
7) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
yeah~not much but precious
8) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?
yeah I did lose someone once, but we are alrite for now.
9) What was your favorite song in 2005?
I m always addicted to different song in different phase of life.
SOUL'd Out-I'm Living for Today,趙學而-每隔兩秒,
未成年主張-找尋你呼喚你-強辯樂團,黃義達-顯微鏡下的愛情,Let's Get it Started,Pump it,
Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter,王力宏-花田錯,張學友-雪狼湖,Mandy Moore-Only Hope,
劉允樂-分開的意思,孫燕姿-完美的一天,范瑋琪-你,如果的事,Jesse Spencer - Molly Smiles
11) What was the biggest lie you told in 2005?
"Okay,I will make this due by tmw",actually I was doing sth else n didnt plan to cope with the thing I promised;"I can't attend it,thx for ur invitation,I really hope I can go",when someone asked me for date but I found it disgusted.
12) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
well, I dont remember that someone lied, actually I dont care abt this though.
13) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
nope, maybe I did bitching someone sometimes.:P
14) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
spend more time with my family.
15) What are your plans for 2006?
Get enough transportation fee to offer my dreams to each destination I want.
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
From the end of June, I have spend my summer more than 8 weeks for now. What did I do in these days?Well, I spend some time struggling for staying in AIESEC, trying to find the balance of communication with family, learning to define wuz so-called relationship with double 'K', having good time w/some special friends, n making the decision of my future(right after graduated). So far, I m doing ok on these items,about AIESEC, I decide to stay in AIESEC as MCER_LC development, still doing branding, LC coaching, ER knowledge Mangement, National LCER coordination, project quality/image management, e-paper editing, ER system set up, and also help out some other related media stuff, also the NST work in MC. About family, it's hard to figure out the best way for communication/being alone with especially when I talked about my career w/them,different expectation brings disagreement,*sigh*but I still love them.About relationship stuff, all I can say is that I really had great time w/my 'special' friend, these moments will be the most beautiful part for my summer 2005. However, it's not easy to define wut the relationship is among people clearly, all that I do care is whether I m happy at that moment w/someone I appreciate together. About my future, my parents wants me to go for graduation skul but I would like to join traineeship /get a job first, n then go abroad to study.Aite, these above r some rough draft of this summer.
I still got 3 weeks for vacation*yeah*, unfortunately I also got a looooong working list to check then.
Good luck to my MC teammates in India, I miss u guys heaps.Now I m taking my working list in hand,trying to work as hard as I can, n waiting for ur bring-back sharing n tons of fresh ideas. Anyway, take care n have fun,my dears.
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Friday, July 01, 2005
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
recent update
AIESEC status:
I start to receive the MC transition and hit the road for AIESEC0506 teamwork.I m stressed but still look forward to it, at least, give myself a chance to learning by taking such a responsibility.Besides, I m pissed off by the project w/KS government, some government official's brains r just like swamps that makes me stuck n unwilling to keep moving.The absolute stuffy bureancrazy style is so annoying.:s Once I can't get rid of it, I will work harder to conquer, damn gov stuff!!
Campus Life:
As usual, I took lots of courses but not work that hard as I should do, however I finished my midterms and keep struggling w/tons of paper work and presentation stuff these days.Well, I guess the thing I should avoid first is skipping the morning class.
Health:
asthma,sleeplessness,neck sparin due to a stupid reason:S,sunstroke.
argh, at least I lost 4 pounds in 2 weeks.
Random thoughts:
1.I start to afraid of losing some friends especially when I accumulate the friends network n broaden the range I shift in daily life.It's kinda needless scruple cos I know I will receive and learn more when I hit the road, but I just felt a compulsion to set up another blog in Chinese to keep in touch w/my univ,high skul,n other old friends.
2.My world is so small n rigid, I feel like that when I started to build up another photoalbum,"http://www.wretch.cc/album/vicachic". By edit catalogs of photos, the main scopes r 'friends','family','aiesec',n 'campus'.The lack of fresh stuff/friends/environment makes me ill at ease. Not much conslusion, I may just need another trip abroad or meet some new ppl.
that's all for now, abt other stuffs,I will keep updating later.
I start to receive the MC transition and hit the road for AIESEC0506 teamwork.I m stressed but still look forward to it, at least, give myself a chance to learning by taking such a responsibility.Besides, I m pissed off by the project w/KS government, some government official's brains r just like swamps that makes me stuck n unwilling to keep moving.The absolute stuffy bureancrazy style is so annoying.:s Once I can't get rid of it, I will work harder to conquer, damn gov stuff!!
Campus Life:
As usual, I took lots of courses but not work that hard as I should do, however I finished my midterms and keep struggling w/tons of paper work and presentation stuff these days.Well, I guess the thing I should avoid first is skipping the morning class.
Health:
asthma,sleeplessness,neck sparin due to a stupid reason:S,sunstroke.
argh, at least I lost 4 pounds in 2 weeks.
Random thoughts:
1.I start to afraid of losing some friends especially when I accumulate the friends network n broaden the range I shift in daily life.It's kinda needless scruple cos I know I will receive and learn more when I hit the road, but I just felt a compulsion to set up another blog in Chinese to keep in touch w/my univ,high skul,n other old friends.
2.My world is so small n rigid, I feel like that when I started to build up another photoalbum,"http://www.wretch.cc/album/vicachic". By edit catalogs of photos, the main scopes r 'friends','family','aiesec',n 'campus'.The lack of fresh stuff/friends/environment makes me ill at ease. Not much conslusion, I may just need another trip abroad or meet some new ppl.
that's all for now, abt other stuffs,I will keep updating later.
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