There are many 'Sharon' in my life.
The first one was my Local Committee President elected, Sharon Chieh- The most lovely and sweet kiddo I'v ever seen.
The second one was my Member Committee teammate, Sharon Shao- her words is always beyond people's imagination. We both love bollywood movies.
The third one is my current plurk mate, Sharon Cheng- I didnt really know her until we were addicted to Plurk few months ago. I like the way how she treat friends.
The other one is my ex-colleague, Sharon Fung- she just became my 'ex' colleague today. We went to the same university and found incredible fun in Thailand together. She is the Sharon I mentioned in the title of this entry. The thing is, I dont usually share my private life with colleagues. She is the one who became my friend before being my colleague. It is also the reason I feel a bit depressed today.
People come and go without notice. It is still hard for me to get familiar with new people in working environment within days or weeks.
I will miss you, girl. Bon Voyage.
Monday, December 07, 2009
Friday, November 06, 2009
Very Lost
Most of the time I got a goal, or several ones. As I'v been told, pursuing goals is how people keep their life on. And I was quite enjoy the sense of achievement when I did it.
Last night I was talking to my sis, asked her why I got upset so easily. She said that I have too much desires, in terms of material needs and the demands of interpersonal relationships. The desires control how I think and how I act. Never let it go, until I hold what I want in hand.
Most of my friends, or closed friends know that I am a control freak. I set up my timetable and always make things done in time. It doesnt sound sexy at all, pathetically I do live like this way- a typical 'check' person- check each to-do item, then arrange time/resource to complete the tasks. When I finish one, good, here comes the next. Check check check, never stops.
My sis asked me an interesting question, 'what if you lose control of what you want to control, what do you really lose?' I pondered for a while, said, 'Nothing necessary, except for my working performance of project mamagement.' Ironically, my sis replied, 'What you always try to take control is not only for work; more than half of your time, you tend to control everything except your mind.'
So true, what she said makes me hesitated about the way I live. Or the way I used to believe in.
What is important to me? What the driving factors in my life?
About the people whom I do care, what do they want? What I can do for them?
Responsibility and check-on-schedule probably are not the only answer for life, there are much know to know, to experience, and to enjoy. It might be time for me to stop, and leave some space for myself to think about it.
Last night I was talking to my sis, asked her why I got upset so easily. She said that I have too much desires, in terms of material needs and the demands of interpersonal relationships. The desires control how I think and how I act. Never let it go, until I hold what I want in hand.
Most of my friends, or closed friends know that I am a control freak. I set up my timetable and always make things done in time. It doesnt sound sexy at all, pathetically I do live like this way- a typical 'check' person- check each to-do item, then arrange time/resource to complete the tasks. When I finish one, good, here comes the next. Check check check, never stops.
My sis asked me an interesting question, 'what if you lose control of what you want to control, what do you really lose?' I pondered for a while, said, 'Nothing necessary, except for my working performance of project mamagement.' Ironically, my sis replied, 'What you always try to take control is not only for work; more than half of your time, you tend to control everything except your mind.'
So true, what she said makes me hesitated about the way I live. Or the way I used to believe in.
What is important to me? What the driving factors in my life?
About the people whom I do care, what do they want? What I can do for them?
Responsibility and check-on-schedule probably are not the only answer for life, there are much know to know, to experience, and to enjoy. It might be time for me to stop, and leave some space for myself to think about it.
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
The value of living
I asked Ivy about her opinion toward the value of living, her answer is 'be happy'.
People set goals for their life, 'family, career, fortune, health' are common ideas.
I estimate that there are another 50 years to live in my life.
What do I really want?
And what does really matter to me?
It is hard to figure out a certain answer.
-Having family versus living along.
-Successful career versus carefree life style
-Own a great fortune versus living a basic life
-Being health versus living life to the most and cut it out at the peak of life line
It is way to extreme to divide these possibilities as above.
Yet it would lead to different direction in terms of having opposite attitude toward life.
What do I really want?
I will give myself another year to ponder over.
People set goals for their life, 'family, career, fortune, health' are common ideas.
I estimate that there are another 50 years to live in my life.
What do I really want?
And what does really matter to me?
It is hard to figure out a certain answer.
-Having family versus living along.
-Successful career versus carefree life style
-Own a great fortune versus living a basic life
-Being health versus living life to the most and cut it out at the peak of life line
It is way to extreme to divide these possibilities as above.
Yet it would lead to different direction in terms of having opposite attitude toward life.
What do I really want?
I will give myself another year to ponder over.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Focus
Recently I realized that few things can make me truly happy, such as watching romantic/comic movies, chatting with real friends, cleaning the house (I have pysophobia indeed), reading an inspiring book, spending time with family, and being focused.
Being focused makes me fulling involved in something/certain situation, which spurs my potential and energy, then it brings me heaps of creativities and possibilities. It rocks!
Unfortunately this kind of spirit only happens occasionally. I called it 'flow'. People who are interestd in the 'flow' concept can refer to Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, he has great idea about flow and creativity. I met him on campus few years ago. His speech was pretty inspiring.
I am looking for the pattern of being focused (probably there is no pattern/ rule/ tips to be focus). It is way too spontaneous and uncontroallable at this stage. I will need to calm myself down and figure out how it works to increase my capacity in terms of equipping myself with more productivities and abilities to increase life quality.
That's it for now, I need to go back to work and BEING FOCUSED.
Being focused makes me fulling involved in something/certain situation, which spurs my potential and energy, then it brings me heaps of creativities and possibilities. It rocks!
Unfortunately this kind of spirit only happens occasionally. I called it 'flow'. People who are interestd in the 'flow' concept can refer to Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, he has great idea about flow and creativity. I met him on campus few years ago. His speech was pretty inspiring.
I am looking for the pattern of being focused (probably there is no pattern/ rule/ tips to be focus). It is way too spontaneous and uncontroallable at this stage. I will need to calm myself down and figure out how it works to increase my capacity in terms of equipping myself with more productivities and abilities to increase life quality.
That's it for now, I need to go back to work and BEING FOCUSED.
Monday, June 15, 2009
My first job
Dear all,
Here comes a new entry since I'v stepped into another stage of life. Yes I am 25 and it is my first job ever. I work for Wharton Brain Trust group as an assistant consultant. There are only 8 to 12 employees in this corp. What we do is offering managerial consulting service to different field of industries. We provide strategic planning, marketing and sales management, human resource strategy consulting services and general trainig courses.
Small company has its own pros and cons. My working time is quite flexible but the working load is unendurable at the same time. Young colleagues and plain environment bring me both fun and boring experiences. Crazy amounts of opportunities lead to fast grow-up of self-learning and strong impact on emotional experiences.
I am a bit confused of what I really want sometimes. Yet I am be so sure of what I dislike. For instance, I can never figure out what sort of person I will become in next three years. Meanwhile I can dig out the nature of my job and keep working hard for it since I truly believe in.
People always dream about those things they will hardly reach. I do the same as well. However, there is one thing certainly,'I choose what I love, and I do love what I am doing'.
Life is tough sometimes, fortunately I got supports from different group of people and communities. The thoughts of paying back and sending the love forward exist in my mind all the time, I think it is the main thing makes me keep going.
Here comes a new entry since I'v stepped into another stage of life. Yes I am 25 and it is my first job ever. I work for Wharton Brain Trust group as an assistant consultant. There are only 8 to 12 employees in this corp. What we do is offering managerial consulting service to different field of industries. We provide strategic planning, marketing and sales management, human resource strategy consulting services and general trainig courses.
Small company has its own pros and cons. My working time is quite flexible but the working load is unendurable at the same time. Young colleagues and plain environment bring me both fun and boring experiences. Crazy amounts of opportunities lead to fast grow-up of self-learning and strong impact on emotional experiences.
I am a bit confused of what I really want sometimes. Yet I am be so sure of what I dislike. For instance, I can never figure out what sort of person I will become in next three years. Meanwhile I can dig out the nature of my job and keep working hard for it since I truly believe in.
People always dream about those things they will hardly reach. I do the same as well. However, there is one thing certainly,'I choose what I love, and I do love what I am doing'.
Life is tough sometimes, fortunately I got supports from different group of people and communities. The thoughts of paying back and sending the love forward exist in my mind all the time, I think it is the main thing makes me keep going.
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